Really.. I don't feel like myself lately. It's quite annoying when you find yourself saving things as drafts or when everything goes into your personal diary. It feels as though I have forbidden thoughts that can't be shown to the world. This isn't me at all, is it?

I wouldn't imagine myself suppressing my emotions but that's exactly what I'm trying to do these days. It's so unlike me to let my brain tell me what is the RIGHT way to feel so as to control my emotions. Don't I normally let myself be sad? It's more like "there's no use in being sad!" "there's no use in panicking!" or "that's the point in feeling that way?" kind of thing these days.